In Winter

The darkness takes over

Some mornings I wake up in the black

fetal under 3 layers

I feel safe and swaddled until I uncover an arm or a leg

I’m hit with a stinging chill and remember that it is Winter

 

My dreams are different during shorter days

In them, my teeth fall out

or the house burns down

my plane leaves the airport because I went to the wrong gate

my party invitations get lost in the mail

 

My uncertainty is highlighted

the stories, little dramas magnified so that I will see them

They ask me to remember what I know: I can turn on the light!

 

And then, I shine

Dream dramas are revealed as impostors

Warmth is my own creation, eternal

Love is a choice

Surrender is freedom

 

In Winter, the darkness illuminates

And I am closer to Whole.